Yep in done

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So I'll tell you what, I am not just some random girl you just fuxk and leave.

There are a few kinds of girls I have been

A woman who gets fuxked up and goes home with anyone that looks good "usually someone that you wake up and say "who the fuxk is this"

So far I have not done this and I don't intend to work though my pain in this way.

I have been the woman that is devastated by the blindsided end of a marriage of six years.

I met a man that will kiss me with an intense "push you up against wall" way. His hands feel me up simple because he can and he likes too.

That's right because he LIKES too.

I know damn well he is leaving November and that is a good thing, not a relationship (because I need one of those like a hole in the fucking head) just someone that feels good. A nice distraction to the fact my husband of 6 years doesn't find me attractive (and hasn't in several years).

I have met men that fuxks the hell out of me and leaves because that is all I needed him for.

I have met a man that takes me to dinner and goes home with me where he wraps his strong arms around you and holds you solely for the fact that it feels good to hold someone.

I have been with my ex-husband because he is comfortable and safe. Which frankly is the stupidest thing I have done. Because I always have to leave empty handed and there are feelings that are not returned (hence the divorce).

But my self esteem is slowly coming back.

I refuse to be the girl you fuxk and leave.

How about this if you don't intend to stay don't waste my time. It's about that simple.

Even a drunk one night stand hangs out till you wake up in the morning wrapped around them even if you have no recollection of who the hell he is.

I AM WORTH MORE THAN THAT!!!

SO JASON I AM NOT THAT GIRL.

Not the girl you text and say and I quote

"are the kiddos asleep" "yeah" "come have a smoke with me in the garage"

Well I should know better.

This is the man that out of nowhere says "I want a divorce" he is only calling for a booty call.

Well I don't want to cuddle up and watch a movie and play like this is a nice "date like" evening.

I don't want to relive a scene from a marriage that I dearly miss.

I have officially had ENOUGH!

Don't call me! Don't fuck me just to leave. It means something to me. Sex with you means something. God damn it. It makes this hurt.

I am once again WORTH more then that.

I deserve a man that wants me, needs me, that wants to stay.

And from now on I am waiting for exactly that.

So fuxk you Jason.