Hurt

Dear heavenly father,

I don't know where you are, but could you be here with me? Please

I signed the papers today, and when the stamp it the paper my heart broke. And I really need you to be here with me. Just tell it stops hurting.

I feel like I am bleeding to death, help me know what to do with my children.

My precious baby's, right now they are at their dads, which in my option it is the best place for them.

Heavenly father without you I don't know how I am gonna get though this.

Please be with my kids, i will understand they need you more. Right now their whole world is changing they say they are young enough to get though this.

Well, I don't know if that is True or not. But I know that I am old enough to know that I won't get though this with our help,

Taylor Swift writes song. One for everything that could possibly happen to any one person.
There is one where she is in school and comes home crying cuz her friends were mean. And her mom just takes her for a drive. Well my mom is busy and pretty much anyone buddy who would hang out with me would want me to talk about.

I don't wanna talk. I wanna cry. I wanna feel like I feel. Heartbroken.

I don't want people to tell me it will be ok, cuz it won't. I don't want to hear the hurt ends, cuz right now it's not going anywhere. I don't want to her that he is gonna miss me when I'm gone. Cuz we both know that I have been gone for a month and he hasn't missed me yet. I don't wanna hear anything I wanna be held the my tears stop.

I want your arms around me. Right now. Please?

I'm am not ok, you know this you know everything.

And I AM NOT OK.