This is it,

This it, in one week I will no longer be supported by a man. Then the week will go by I will unpack my stuff into a my kids and my new home.

The week will be just me, just me unpacking and setting up
Rooms,

At the end of the week Friday I will get off work and come home to my babies. Saturday I will wake up... Drive to Whitney's house drop my kids off... And cross the street where a judge will tell me that I am not married anymore.

Divorced

6 years wrapped up with goodbye.

Will I cry? Will I walk out feeling free?

Will it hurt, when he bangs that hammer will it make me jump.

Will it get all quiet and words get muffled? Will I go into a quiet coma. Like a zombie?

Will I walk out those doors, will there be someone there? Someone to fix the hurt, someone to take me in their arms and whisper in my ear...I got you. Your alright.

Or will it just be me.

Alone

Here is my final prayer.

Heavenly father, I know your there.. You have helped me so much. You have blessed me in so many ways.

You helped me get here to this day. I have a job, and a home. I have a life all my own. I couldn't have gotten here with out your love and your help.

Please help me get through this last part. Help me keep my composer

Help me know that your in that room with me. Keep my hands from shaking, help me be strong. Help me be ok.

You have a plan for each and every one of us. What your plan for me isn't clear to me. But I have faith it's clear to you. I am going to do this, I am going to be ok. I have faith in that.

Just help me understand why this is happening. Why now? Why today.

Help me, I love you.

In the name of Jesus Christ
Amen