This week

Today is Thursday, yesterday was wednesday, Tuesday before that. Monday.

Monday I took Conner to his well baby... He is healthy. Yay! Mostly it was a good day... In fact can't think of a bad thing at all.

Tuesday, got up early... Got to my appointment on time, coffee in hand.
Got home, made a zillion phone calls found a daycare. Enrolled the kids got the paper turned in. Got home... And everything when down hill. You would think I would be happy I got a lot accomplished. But I don't know if it was the fact that I was one step closer to being independent, but I spiraled down into a place that didn't feel so good. All of a sudden it all hit me. This is real. I am going to have to move on. And that thought was followed by... God this hurts.

Wednesday... Got up, took the kids to their new daycare. Went home... Looked for a job for 8 whole hours. Turned in 4 applications. Not feeling good about a single one. Non of them it the job criteria the pay I needed. It just didn't go the way I wanted. I didn't feel good about it. Leaving me to get to a place where I just felt like I was stuck. I was never going to be able to take care of my kids. I was always going to be dependent on someone else. I had to go to Walmart, to buy printer ink... 50$ that I didn't have to pay for a job that I didn't have and wasn't gonna get. Justin wasn't feeling good and it was just bad. I went to bed Lonely and sad and cried myself to sleep.

Thursday.... It was a long night Justin had a bad fever and he came into my bedroom and slept. I woke up called the daycare told them I was gonna take the kids to the doctor.

Then I took them to the daycare came home received two calls that set up interviews for Friday. And then I cut my hair... And over all I had an amazing day.

Hopefully Friday will be amazing.

This is me telling my self this week sucked.

But know that I will be ok. You don't fail and your not going to start now !!!