All My Filters!
How Are You? Answer: Fine i am doing well
Really? WTF. i just went from a mom of an active happy baby Boy, to the Hospital where i got to sit around and do NOTHING! and NOW I am home.. with a ACTIVE TWO YEAR OLD> that is going to put me in and early Grave.
Can I get you anything? Answer: No i am good really,
actually!!!
I need a FUCKING haircut. I need to be able to breastfeed my Son and have it be enough. I need to be able to Drive my Car. FAST! i need to be able to afford without getting yelled at a PEDICURE< MANICURE maybe even a Massage. I need to STOP HURTING> Oh and this would be nice,,, it would be great if i could maybe get a chance to EAT! that's right EAT a fucking Meal... BUT NOOOO right now i feed my Children... well the one that will eat anyway. the other one just sucks at nothing. and then doesn't gain weight so.. who knows why the fuck i am still doing that. and while i get my two year old to eat.. I clean the fucking house. Cuz there is a LIST DON'T YOU KNOW>> Fuck the fact that i had open GUT surgery less then three weeks ago. to get your 2nd born child out. fuck the fact that i probably eat maybe 700 calories a day... fuck the fact i can barely look myself in the mirror because i am physically disgusting. Fuck the fact. that my doctors office,.... didn't remember who i was. DIDN'T REMEMBER! REALLY> I need my life to be sane. I need it to make sense. I NEED to be Pretty again. I need my husband to want me... to come home from work and say.. i see that the house is actively a mess. but i see that you worked at it. EVIDENT to the fact that all the shit is swept into a pile and your going though paperwork on a service THAT I said had to be cleaned everyday. how about you sit down and eat with me. how about you come here and give me a kiss. how about a hug because your the mother of my kids and the woman i married and even thought your not perfect. i still see the woman that makes me Happy/crazy/insane. in that order.
I need people to see the mess that is barely hanging on.
Not the Girl that gives her 2 year old son matchbox cars. and feels the need to tell me that That isn't and APPROPRIATE toy for him. REALLY WHO ARE YOU?
I Don't get the house clean everyday. But i TRY> that just isn't good enough.
OK another filter.
WHY do i get RANDOM INVITES to places you couldn't pay me to go... and i will tell you why,
1: you have NEVER come to any of my party's,
2: you treat your friends like CRAP> REALLY
3: I basically don't understand why on earth i would want to waste 2 hours out of my life at your god damn baby shower. you don't give a fuck about me. never have Never will and I think i will just Skip it. THANKS
Filter that is petty and i don't care.
what is this outfit...
do you not have people that love you to tell you that not only does that NOT match. but it makes you look like your just a complete WHORE> and not the fun kind. but it makes you look older then you actually are,
I know i have people that would have tackled me before letting me leave the house in that. JUST SAYING>
another point i would like to make.
Don't walk into a room where a 2nd time new mom is sitting and start the conversation with ... WE HAVE TO ADD FORMULA> OR HIS BRAIN CELL WILL DIE>
REALLY@!!!!
how about this... Well he looks good.. your doing great.. he isn't gaining enough here is a number to a Lactation consultant she/he can help you get him latched on.
oh and i know i just got done telling you that how you want to feed your Son isn't really doing it. but also.... fill out this post pardon depression worksheet.
Oh OK
yeah, Congrats on giving me something to be depressed about. AWESOME!!!
